Despite my active imagination, I don't think my mind has been so jumpy in a long time. Constantly moving from job to life to travel to lunch menu to rain and repeat with some new variables.
I've been at my new job over a week and it's been a painfully slow start. All I seem to do is read blogs and go out drinking with colleagues. I doubt my younger self would have complained about this, but sadly I'm older and in a real big hurry to kickstart my career and attain eternal fame, wealth and prosperity.
Yesterday, finally I managed to get some work an then I realised I'm not as quick at picking things up as I used to. Or maybe I've been so bored at work the past week my brain is simply refusing to compute and understand the counter-intuitive softwares used by the company. Eitherways it isn't making me feel smart and therefore I am not liking my job already.
On the train into work today, I regretted my loss of wonder when I used to gape at everything and be a tourist. Now I just feel like one of the many zombies, running through life just to get onto the 8:07 train in time.
I need to calm down. Calm my mind down. This big mug of black coffee isn't helping.
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