Monday, 30 August 2010

New house. New post. (Unrelated)

Young kids in their early twenties proclaiming 'life has come full circle' is rather amusing to me this morning.

So what exactly are they going to do next ? Run around in circles circling their full circle, of inferior diameter, for the next 40 odd years ?

Is it from lack of ability to identify milestones or lack of geometry that they proclaim such things with as much seriousness a facebook status message can warrant ?

I am quite pleased that my life is no where close to a full circle or a semi circle or even an arc.

I have decided to go in a different direction.

On that note, I shall leave for work, thus furthering my work on the rectangular parallelepiped which is my life.

P.S. The new house is gorgeous :)

Tuesday, 24 August 2010

Enthu cutlets !

So excited are we to move into the new house, that we finished packing EVERYTHING last weekend, for the move which will happen this coming weekend.

Of course the fact that we may need some things this week did not occur to us until we woke up Monday morning and found ourselves sprinting to the car/train trying to avoid getting rain soaked.

I doubt either of us have ever been simultaneously, as excited about the same thing ever before.

No pressure, Mr. New house. Just saying.

Thursday, 19 August 2010

Rant

I have been underutilised at my present job for almost a year now. I haven't had any learnings of any significance.

I really need to find something more intellectually stimulating soon.

Being stuck in mediocrity does horrible things for ones self worth and level of confidence.

I need out. Now.

Sunday, 8 August 2010

"Your Son's & Your Daughter's Are Beyond Your Command"....& Rightfully So.

When other kids were attending Rabindrasangeet classes and learning the Bangla script, I played hockey.

When other young girls were learning basic cooking, I spent all my time reading and devouring music.

My parents expressed anger, frustration, remorse, disappointment. My mother said, I would only learn the hard way. When I had a kid that would treat me so.

But I learnt. Hard way, yes. Moving half way across the globe to realise one's roots is difficult indeed. When there is an unquenchable thirst for learning and no resources it is frustrating indeed. But I still learnt.

And now when my mom marvels at how I have learnt to run a house and my father can barely contain his pride when he tells me that when he sees me this December after 3 years he would only recognize me physically but barely mentally, when they both get teary watching my metamorphosis, the past is all washed away.

All my resentment, all their disappointment washed away.

I want to remember to be patient with my child. Let him/her take his time to find himself. Because when he/she finally does, it will be the most enriching thing for him/her as a person and the most rewarding thing for me to watch.

There is a beauty in allowing people to discover themselves. Delayed gratification of a sort.

I only hope I remember this when it's time.

Of New Furniture, Evolution & Maybe Some Growing Up.

We have been the ultimate furniture-warriors over the past few weeks, both of us trying our best to find us the perfect couch, dining table, coffee table, dresser and such like for the new house.

We went to every furniture store and online site we could think of. We got overwhelmed, underwhelmed, appalled, overjoyed and downright miserable (thanks to our pricey tastes). Budget aside the next big criteria is obviously, it has to be something we both fall in love with at first site (Like the new house !! It is the most beautiful place our bank accounts could rent and we loved it the minute we saw it.) and if you are us then you would know how exasperating that can be. 

We did find our dream couch and our dream dining table last weekend at our dream store. Of course now the dream has turned us bankrupt, but we can still sit at our perfect dining table and eat air ! Totally worth it ! 

When we signed the lease on our new house, I thought nothing could overcome that feeling of joy and pride and accomplishment. Little did I know choosing, liking (both of us) and buying furniture is downright all that times 10 ! I got all teary and we got extremely cuddly and that stayed that way for a while. And all because of furniture ! Of course we got over it fairly quickly with the argument about whose turn it is to take the trash down but while it lasted, it was terrific ! 

Initially, we had planned on going easy with the furniture, because we really don't know where we will be two years from now. In case we go back to India, we won't be able to carry all the furniture back and hence it would be wasteful to spend a small fortune now. And if we did stay on here and eventually bought a house of our own, we would have to buy furniture to suit that place and be a little more grown up than what we can envision right now, and hence render our current buys redundant again. Basically, we figured, it would be wisest to wait for things to fall in place before we start investing towards building our perfect world.

But something changed last weekend at our dream store. Among the rows of pretty furniture and soft lighting and pleasing music and smiley salespeople....very quietly, without much debate, through the path of least resistance a light bulb went off in two separate heads at the same moment. 

Why delay and deny ourselves the joy of riding the wave right now just because we don't know how long it will last ? We can make every wave a perfect one and ride it till it lasts right ? And when it does crash, we can just get up and go find a new wave to make our own. That is what growing up, moving on, evolving, adapting and all those grown up words are all about right ? Right !